Any who..... we made it home... the 1st of many mile stones. Not to mention, we just closed on our house 4 days ago, moved in over the weekend, and are still in the process of moving in....its been a busy 5 days...But I wouldn't have it any other way.... Brody is home, thats all that matters..... our pfamily life begins now....
OK fast forward to WED 11.13.13... its 11:54 pm and I am finally done for the day. Well almost. I have 9 min left of pumping breast milk. WHAT A FREAKIN DAY.... thats all I can say. Did you ever watch that tv show on mtv "The Real World" ? And they used to say "You think you know, but you have no idea"....well thats what I feel like. Ill be real honest. For 2 months now, I haven't really felt like a real mom. I didn't get to experience what most new moms do. The late night crying, no sleep, up all night trying to feed and keep food down. I got none of that. My days have consisted of sitting in a chair holding my baby, pumping breast milk (saving this topic for another day), learning HOW to take care of my child, and sleep... lots of it...whenever I could....whenever I wanted....thats it. I left the rest up to the nurses. The wonderful wonderful nurses and doctors. BUT LAST NIGHT WAS A DIFFERENT STORY..it was my time to shine.
Because Brody has a trach, I have NEVER heard him cry... nothin, not one peep....its a sound that I have longed for since I found out I was pregnant. The only way I know if he is in distress is by the "gunky" "mucus" sound coming out of his trach. So most of my sleep was really me lying there wondering if I just couldn't hear the gunk and hoping he was ok. I thought I knew about sleepless nights, but I had no idea until last night....
I will be back to finish this blog tomorrow.... MUSt.GET.SLEEP.
http://www.gofundme.com/58c7p4
OK fast forward to WED 11.13.13... its 11:54 pm and I am finally done for the day. Well almost. I have 9 min left of pumping breast milk. WHAT A FREAKIN DAY.... thats all I can say. Did you ever watch that tv show on mtv "The Real World" ? And they used to say "You think you know, but you have no idea"....well thats what I feel like. Ill be real honest. For 2 months now, I haven't really felt like a real mom. I didn't get to experience what most new moms do. The late night crying, no sleep, up all night trying to feed and keep food down. I got none of that. My days have consisted of sitting in a chair holding my baby, pumping breast milk (saving this topic for another day), learning HOW to take care of my child, and sleep... lots of it...whenever I could....whenever I wanted....thats it. I left the rest up to the nurses. The wonderful wonderful nurses and doctors. BUT LAST NIGHT WAS A DIFFERENT STORY..it was my time to shine.
Because Brody has a trach, I have NEVER heard him cry... nothin, not one peep....its a sound that I have longed for since I found out I was pregnant. The only way I know if he is in distress is by the "gunky" "mucus" sound coming out of his trach. So most of my sleep was really me lying there wondering if I just couldn't hear the gunk and hoping he was ok. I thought I knew about sleepless nights, but I had no idea until last night....
I will be back to finish this blog tomorrow.... MUSt.GET.SLEEP.
http://www.gofundme.com/58c7p4
Hang in there mommy! You can do it!
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